The time has come!

OH MY GOSH... i leave in like 16 hours to go to California to get my man back! i dont think that any good news anyone told me at this time could possibly make me any happier... actually anything you tell me prolly wont even make it into my thinking space because all thoughts are in california.

to do list:
-pack
-paint nails
-set TIVO

^^ hahaha all the esentials clearly.

but thats all for later... as for what i did today...
work was pretty sucky. it started off going by pretty quickly, and then after my first break time seemed to go by a little more slowly. and of course... just to piss me off... after break number 2 time ticked by each sloooow minute. luckily my lady lover Trish let me leave 1/2 an hour early.
but the fun started when i got home. i got a new phone (oh joy... now i am only down another $300... i cant wait to pick up extra shifts at work). then my mom and i got home.. kristy came over.. and we were all bored so we went to target. we of course used the time to make fools of ourselves. i tried on some VERY ugly clothes right in the middle of the clothing section. then we would find strange things and make comments to my mom. things such as "mom... since i spent all my money on a phone... and you dont want me to get pregnant while tyler is back... you should prolly stock up on condoms" or "oh goody... the cherry scented lube is in with the clearance... better stock up since i can bring as much as i want on the airplane since that is one of the few liquids they dont limit!" (really.... why would anyone need more than 3 oz of lube in their carry on... apparently for reasons my innocent mind cant even fathom!)

ok well... enough of that. but i am really excited.... like REALLY REALLY. haha
wish me luck... i am sure i will fill ya'll in on any good times while i'm down there... and let me tell you... me and tylers mom... there are bound to be some interesting moments.

And here i am... almost 2 months later...

so.... i really havent been writing in this thing... probably because i really havent had anything interesting to say. but i am going to start working on writing more.

right now in my life...
-i am working out and dieting to try and look fabulous for when my man returns.
-work is work.... the only fun part is givin one of the boys shit cause he got beat up by a girl...unfortunately i didnt get the honors though. but i call dibs on next time.
-I leave for California in about a week and 3 days!!! and everything after that is a mystery at this point...

see... boring. but i promise i will find something good to say one of these days...

but til then.. i am going shopping... haha

never thought I'd be here now... or ever.

it's a srtange feeling looking back at what you used to want and see what of that you have really gotten and what slipped through yours hands.

i was at work today... and it was so dead that i really had nothing to do but stand there lookin pretty ;) and think about stuff. and normally i find myself thinking about tyler or family or small things that i want to do later in the day or week... but this time i somehow got caught up in thinking about my fairly boring life and all of a sudden i felt like a huge failure.

i am used to being the type of person where everything is planned out. i always knew what i wanted and i would work hard to get it. but something changed this summer.. i dont know what it is. i cant pinpoint it... but all of a sudden i find myself not wanting to really work for anything. i love school... but i dont know what i want to do anymore and find it dumb to waste money just taking random classes. i love duluth... but once again dumb to waste money to live up here and work at the same job i would work at while living at home for free. so now i am moving back home... i am officially a college drop out (just for now though... i will be going back at somepoint... i hope...)

all motivation is gone. maybe i should blame it on dumb luck. or maybe i am being punished for trying so hard to plan everything out in the past, even though things never went exactly as planned. so now i am stuck to try the whole 'live in the moment' thing... which i cant do because i am spending each moment planning the next moment at the very least.

Trish.... this one's for you

Alrighty... well... I decided to start figuring this all out little by little. So far i cant even figure out how to get a picture up of me.. haha but that will come in time i suppose.

I don't know who will really read this.. other than my blog stalker buddy Trish. (haha you know its true ptrish) But i guess who reads it isn't really the point.. its just kind of a way to let it all out. Maybe i will even find that people do begin to read it and hopefully receive some advice.. maybe a few life lessons. ha.

Well.. if anyone could give me advice on getting a picture up that would be a good start... haha.